Wanted to wish everyone a safe and Happy Holiday…It’s going to be a crazy weekend around here and hopefully I will be around Twitter or Facebook, but I believe my hubby has plans for me…So if I’m not I will be back next week, don’t worry I haven’t left…All of my readers keep me coming back and encouraging me to tell my story, Thank You for that I appreciate it…

Have a Great Weekend…

Berrigirl

How long did you take off for work when you had your surgery?

Well to be perfectly honest with you I never really thought of this question before until now…It might seem like a really easy answer to say, hey I took off the normal 2 wks but I didn’t…After a month off from work I quit my job and wanted to move to Nashville to fulfill my dream of working in the Music Business…Now mind you my husband had a stable job, but in my mind I wanted and needed more…So I basically told him that I was moving in Dec. 2004 and had enrolled at a Recording Engineer school that started in Feb. 2005 and hope that he would come with me…How selfish was I to risk everything to follow my dream, and didn’t even ask him if this was his dream as well…But I got very lucky when he agreed to come with me and said if this made me happy then he was all for it…Now again how lucky can one person be to have such a wonderful husband like I do, cause I know most men wouldn’t have done that…He has always put me first in our marriage and I didn’t realize at the time how I was trying to escape my old self and reinvent myself where no one knew who I was before and that was a former fat girl…I was finally free to be who I always wanted to be and I finally found her…Yes, I did get my dream job but if there is Karma it did come back and bite me when I got sick and couldn’t do it any longer…In the end though my husband got his dream job, so it wasn’t a total waste…

Berrigirl

My Hubby and I are planning on going this summer to Holiday World with some friends and I have to say that I’m nervous about this…Why you might ask, well it’s because the last time I rode on a ride I started coming out of my seat and the only thing keeping me in was the bar…Ok that is freaking scary, why don’t they have seat belts in these things…I never had a problem before with this obviously cause my weight kept me in…Which for some reason I never thought of before…DUH!

When I explained to my husband that I just wasn’t keen on the idea of getting on another ride in my lifetime he explained to me how he had to deal with this his whole life…He is a skinnier guy and one of the major reason he doesn’t like rides is just for the reason I told him about my fear, which is coming out of your seat…Nothing is going to catch you if you fly out…Now that was like a big smack on the head cause I use to make fun of him thinking he was just being a chicken but he actually had a legit reason why he didn’t want to…Now I so get it and now look who is being a chicken …So here is a public apology to my husband…I”M SORRY, PLEASE FORGIVE ME…Love ya

Berrigirl

I have to give my good friend T2nashville a big credit on this topic…She is the one that came up with it and now I’m writing about it…That is what you get when you are friends with a blogger, we write about conversations that we have…LOL…Love ya girl…

The other night at dinner we were talking about our procedures that we had done and she mentioned if she had been told that her “Tool” would have been called a Diet she probably still would have done it, because even though she is dieting again, at least she got a nice jumpstart with her gastric sleeve. But even with ALL of the research she did (and it was extensive), no one really told her that she would be dieting again after 17 months down the road. And that’s really what it is, but we call it “maintaining.”…

After our conversation it makes perfect sense, however unlike T2nashville…If my Doctor had said that my “tool” was really a diet for the rest of my life, I don’t know if I would have gone down that route.

She also made a valid point that sometimes when we have fallen off the wagon, and who doesn’t at some point, we need to jump start our weight loss again. You will hear many of us doing this with a protein shake for breakfast and lunch and then a sensible dinner..Now where have we heard that slogan before?

Ever since I found out that I have to do a Colonoscopy plus an Upper GI, my nerves have been on edge…Cause I just don’t want to wake up while I’m having either one…I know I need it because it’s getting to the point where I can hardly eat or drink anything…If I eat something I bloat and feel like someone is pulling out my staples and if I drink I get Gas really bad…So either way it’s not good…I know I shouldn’t be a wimp or do much complaining cause some people have it a lot worse then I do…

Basically I’m at a point where I’m so over all of this in my life and I think it’s coming to a head…Am I having a pity party, probably just a little bit…Should I ,probably not and I don’t want to sound like this big whiner either…So please bear with me until I get over myself…

Have a great weekend!

Berrigirl