Wednesday May 13 2009…
Today I went to my family doctor because I was having pain in my arm where the IV was inserted. I was told that I had an infection in my arm. I was thinking to myself, imagine that… I had the IV treatment to help myself and it ended up causing more issues. At this point I don’t even know if the doctor knows what to do. We had talked today that if I had to have these treatments for the rest of my life, my veins may not be able to handle it, and then what will I do?? Will I live to see myself grow old or will I die at a young age due to the many complications of having Gastric bypass? If my doctor is questioning what to do, shouldn’t I be doing the same? I did this to myself, other people are sick or dying due to things that they cannot control, so should people care about my health problems? No that is not why I am writing this. I am writing to hopefully try to advise people to try other ways of weight loss instead of looking for the easy way out…
The most ironic part of all of this is when I was in the hospital on May 11th, getting my last IV bag of vitamins; there was a commercial on TV for a doctor that does the gastric surgery. He was promoting how the risks were low and out of those only 1 out of 200 procedures have any complications. I was laying there in the hospital listening to this guy and was thinking that most of the problems do not happen because of the surgery, but happen after the fact. They fail to tell the patients how many complications they can have post op. I mean they touch upon the possible issues that can happen but they do not really elaborate on them. My husband is so frustrated that he contacted a nutritionist that has experience with gastric patients to see if there is anything she could do to help. She agreed that most doctors do not go into details of what can happen after the surgery and after you have lost your weight. Why would they, they are depending on us to have this surgery so that they can make money.
I am at the point that when my friends ask how I am, I feel like I am burdening them by telling the truth. I don’t want to be the person who is sick all of the time. I don’t want them to feel obligated to be nice to me. Granted maybe they are genuinely concerned about how I am, but I still feel horrible talking about it all of the time… Believe it or not, I am really tired about constantly talking about my health…