Today I went out with a very good friend and it was just nice to get out and be in the real world and not think about me for once…
My friend said that for everything that I have gone through that I look very well, and that was such a nice compliment but again I didn’t want to think about me…I wanted to hear about her and only her…
I don’t want to be a burden to my friends…I know they are only concerned about me but I don’t want to be the “Sick Friend”…I want to be the healthy funny girl I used to be…Which I do miss alot…
Some friends have said your still the same person…But I’m not, I’m a more fragile and have to be a dependent person..And that was never my intention to do that with my husband or friends…I always was this independent person who liked to do things for herself and always said I would never have a man to take care of me…Where am I at now a girl who is dependable on a man…Some may say I should be thankful and don’t get me wrong I am, but I would like to contribute something to this world…I’m just to tired at the moment to do that…
I miss the old me…