Yes, I said it…It wasn’t a typo, I meant to say just that…I know we live in a world that being overweight is a crime but I do miss some things that I no longer have…
1. MY WEIGHT- Yes some would say 300 lbs is way more then my 5 feet 4 inches needed, but I always thought of my weight as a safe harbor…What am I crazy, maybe but I always knew if someone would try to attack me I could lay on the ground dead weight and they would not be able to move me…How often do we in our society hear about a attack on a heavier person? And I’m not trying to be mean at all…So it was to my advantage but now I don’t have that security that I always thought I had…Now if I’m going to be attack what do I do…I learn to box and defend myself and pray that it will never happen to me or anybody else…
2. WARMTH- Yes, how many of us miss being warm and now we are just icicles all the time…I have my little space heater turned on all the time because if I don’t then my hands and feet look like little black rocks…Gross imagine and dangerous since I have severe low blood sugar…
3. RESTAURANTS- Yes, I said it…So how many of us truthfully miss that??? I know I do when I go out with friends or family and order something small and have to make it last and eat it very slow so I don’t finish before everyone else does…I didn’t realize what a pain in the ass that it can cause…By the time I finish my food it’s cold and they had a perfectly nice hot meal…
4. SICKNESS- I was perfectly healthy at 300 lbs…I wasn’t sick but maybe once every other year, that is no joke…Yes I had a couple very bad illnesses but things happen in life…But now I’m sick maybe 3 or 4 days out of the week…That is no exaggeration ask my husband he will tell you how many days I just don’t feel good at all…Sometimes I can’t even get out of bed because I’m lacking nutrition…
So I would have to say that these are my biggest complaints about having this surgery… You may agree or disagree on some of these that I listed and I would love to hear your feedback on this…
Berrigirl
Funny you should write about this today…I was having a chat with someone and I said I’d give him a big ole squishy hug when I met him. And then I realized that I can’t do that anymore. I give bony hugs now.
I used to be rather imposing, and would threaten people that I’d sit on them if they didn’t behave. I can’t do that anymore. I’m just a bony little rack of skin that wouldn’t harm a flea and could barely pop a balloon if I sit on it.
And, yeah, I’m always cold now. Bone cold - not just “put a coat on” cold.
And I do miss restaurants. We NEVER go out to eat anymore and I don’t meet friends for meals. It’s just not something we do because it’s no fun and it’s a waste time. Oh, and it can be overwhelming.
Sickness. That’s where you and I depart. I used to be very sick and unhealthy all the time and now I am healthy as a (very small) horse. I do feel great most of the time (except when I’m still suffering 2-1/2 hours later from an unfortunate bout with my new love: quinoa. Ugh.)
But sometimes…(like today) I wish I could eat whatever I want — even that donut that was left in the box. Yeah, THAT donut. Or other junk. And not worry about dumping (which I’d dearly love to do now, thank you very much).
But then…I remember how much I hated the old me, and how I never really LIVED until now, and I think…maybe those things don’t really matter in the grand scheme of things.
I sure hope you feel better, though. I don’t know if I’d feel as “bright” about my decision if I had to suffer as you do each week. That would DEFINITELY be a deal breaker…
The list of what I miss is endless, the feeling of comfort that I had when I had a bad day and knew that my refridgerator full of food would make me feel better.
The ability to get up every day and not have to worry about if I took all of my vitamins or to make sure that I drink enough fluids for the day.
The being able to eat what I wanted to and not have to wory about dumping.
But I am also glad that I have been given a tool that helps me to take control of my life where as before food had total of control of my entire being.
Talk soon…
Big John
I asked my best friend, Mike (who also had wls), “Don’t you wish sometimes you could just eat whatever you wanted? And, an entire meal?” We go to nice restaurants and order a fantastic meal, one that finally I enjoy because as you know, food is no longer enjoyable… and I just get started and have to stop because I’m full! “Crap, Just as I was getting into it….” So I pack it all up for a to go box. But its never the same eating it later.
Cool site. I just read through tons of the posts.
I miss…
COKES - I really miss that nice burning sensation when you drink a soda. I don’t drink them now, because they’re very bad for EVERYONE, but I do miss it.
BEING STRONG - I used to be able to move big items of furniture with my weight behind it, but now…I can barely lift my suitcase! I feel like a weakling.
And like the other comments, I miss warmth and enjoying big meals, especially the ones that are so tasty, you really want to finish them.
But then again, I really like these size 10 jeans, too! Love ya!